I have always loved music. I used to be in a band. Well, technically I still am. We just recorded some new demos after a 20 year hiatus.
I have always loved movies. I went to film school. I am a filmmaker by trade.
I love to read. I have written two books so far.
So, while it would seem that I am doing pretty good in the media creation department, the fact is creating is a hard business. There is so much resistance, internally and externally, that keeps me from producing things. It’s a never ending battle. While it’s certainly easier to create new things once you have established a pattern of starting and finishing things in the past, it’s still just hard.
I used to spend a lot of time talking about writing a book prior to writing my first book. Like talking about it was a substitute for doing it. Eventually, someone called me out for being all talk. They were right.
The truth is, and I am borrowing this idea from someone else, though I can’t remember who: I hate writing, but I love having written. I hate editing, but I love having edited.
At the end of the day, I have to guard against creating more media than I consume. It’s easy to watch a movie, listen to a record, or read a book and feel more creative for having done it. Sure, those things have a way of feeding the soul. But they are not a substitute for creating new and original things.
Somewhere inside, I am still fearful of creating. Afraid that I won’t like it. Afraid that I won’t finish it. Afraid that other people won’t like it.
So, I am putting out a challenge to myself to make sure I can push through and overcome the resistance, and my fear. For every hour of media I consume, I need to create an hour of original content. An hour of writing, video creation, music composition, and anything associated with it. I have to earn time consuming content created by creating some of my own.
I’ll keep you posted on my progress.